Good Friday...
only in retrospect is that an accurate name for the day Jesus was murdered.
"From noon to three, the whole earth was dark. Around midafternoon Jesus groaned out of the depths, crying loudly, "Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?" which means "My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?" (Matthew 27) It could have all ended there. They take him down, put him in the tomb, roll the stone in front of the door, dust off their hands and...that's it. Over. Finished. End of story. When I read the gospel account, I cannot imagine what the Son of God must have been thinking or feeling to acknowledge that God had abandoned him. But I notice there's more to the story. I notice the power that was unleashed in the moments that followed what seemed to be an ending...
"Jesus, again crying out loudly, breathed his last. At that moment, the Temple curtain was ripped in two, top to bottom. There was an earthquake, and rocks were split in pieces. What's more, tombs were opened up, and many bodies of believers asleep in their graves were raised. The captain of the guard and those with him, when they saw the earthquake and everything else that was happening, were scared to death. They said, "This has to be the Son of God!" (again, Matthew 27)
Fast forward two thousand years to a small group of Jesus' followers learning about seeing Jesus in each other and in the stranger. Struggling to acknowledge that the ways of the culture around them leaves them numb at times. Learning to die to themselves, to sacrifice. Calling on God, seeking to listen faithfully for how He would call them to live His life and love in their world. They are beginning to taste the Life of God in their midst. They are beginning to seek ways to give the Life away. Then their pastor is diagnosed with cancer and goes on medical leave.
It could have all ended there. End of story, close the book. A fledgling church with little history, little precedent to follow, few tracks to run on when the engine must return to the roundhouse and the rest of the train is left stranded. This little group could have easily echoed Jesus words, "Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?"
But that isn't how the story unfolded. Instead a power was unleashed. At first it took hold in a few hearts, but a momentum began to sweep the community. Helping hands worked together to meet needs large and small. The community continued to meet, living into the rhythms that held them together. Often tears filled their eyes as they looked around and felt each other's pain and wondered where was this story going? Where was God taking them? But they moved as God called them - together. They committed themselves to walking through the hard places, to being honest about their fears, to firmly holding onto each others' hands.
From the journal of one member in the early days of that season of Winter: "For the first month I found myself focused on attending to all of the details that ensured we would have a church to go to if we showed up on Sunday night. I likened it to holding an egg. My job was to protect it and care for it, ensuring no harm would befall it, no cracks appear in its surface. But the initial shock is now wearing off. And I am waking up to this: I've been protecting the shell, but not attending to the LIFE inside that shell.
Initially, I think that is a normal reaction. As we focused on what to do and how to do it, it was a way to survival. A way TO it, but not a place to dwell. No, to stay there would be death, not LIFE. Abbey Way has never been about what we do or how we do it. Yes, we have rhythms and practices that we follow. But, they are the shell that holds the LIFE. Indeed, they help us create space for the LIFE that we can encounter as we attend to our relationships with each other and God."
The power of God working among them wasn't as dramatic as torn Temple curtains or earthquakes, but it was deep, working itself out in each individual. God was forming something solid and enduring within the heart of each one who had opened him or herself to the work of God in their lives. God's strength made perfect in weakness - indeed. They attended to the Life...
and they were changed.
Seven months passed. The church was still together. Not only still meeting, but beginning to pray in earnest, "Lord, what is our charism? What is the gift you have given us to give to your world? What is the ministry you have been preparing us for?" The pastor returned from leave and it was Spring. Signs of new Life began to appear. More visitors began to come. It was as if God had cloistered them for the season of Winter and now those in the monastery were being asked to re-engage with the community around them. Wake up, those who love God! Your neighbors need you! They looked around and behold, the needs were apparent and they were equipped with open hearts and willing hands.
The story wasn't...isn't over. This little community has walked this season of Lent not as a journey to the cross, they have lived in the dark places of Lent for a very long time. The places of struggle and suffering and dying. This Lent has been a journey to Easter. A journey toward a place of rising again!
Today is Good Friday. In retrospect this little group of followers can look back and praise God that the story didn't end where the world would close the book. The power of God made manifest through His body, The Church, continues to work out the Life of God among them...and through them. That they might turn and give it away. Isn't this so like God? In yet another Great Reverse, God proves His kingdom is not like the kingdoms of this world...that in dying (where the world thinks the story is over) there is actually more Life to be found - and to be lived!
"This has to be the Son of God!" As St. Benedict said, "And so we begin again..."
"But lo! Here you are; you rescue us from our wretched meanderings and establish us on your way; you console us and bid us, 'Run: I will carry you, I will lead you and I will bring you home.' " -St Augustine
This year, the faith community of Abbey Way knows the joy of rising again in a deeper way...
Praising God with full hearts this Easter and waiting to see what God will do next!